Day 12 


I would like to write about personality game ,which I allowed ,again.I agree  to do something  ,what I was not sure ,that I can do  
it ,in time when I was asking for favor…,but I do want to be the one, somebody can count on it ….., and this is not all , whats happen , I experience tons of energy ,compounding energy, and of course a back chat , ….  and this was happened , because I was not totally in my body , I was not stable in my physicality , ….I went totally with my personality of pleasing somebody ,so  I will be the good one , the one you can count on it ……,the one who sacrifice  ( ….but the thing , is that  this situation ,did not even require sacrifice - sort of   speak ……it was simple ….when I should just  say : No…..and will be so easy and done…..My response was maybe ….but really yes!!!….

so I would like to take responsibility on that :

1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to  not be honest with myself .

2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to not be in my physicality ,be not stable ,

3.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to really did not want to stop this personality game , knowing that  it is abuse to fallow  the energy and mind.

4.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself , to promise  someone something …..knowing that  I  might  not be able to  do it ,and in this creating all  kind of havoc in my mind  and from this moment being involved in my mind game ,missing the real physicality, instead being  here with breathe .

5.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself , to not considering this physical reality ,but totally believing my mind reality .

6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to still have this attraction toward energy and feelings ,knowing that this is preprogram reality , dismissing  physicality.

7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,still existing in my memory in my mind ,were I was  a good person and always ready to help ….,which is not thru ,because this was / is done with self interests .

8.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself ,to not realizing how this play out  effect my physical body ,how this mind game is living of the flesh , sucking out the real life ,which is physicality.
9.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to not being thru and self honest to me and the other person ,only because I did want the experience of positive feedback for myself .

9.I commit myself to stop ,breathe before I make any decision,before I commit to  something .

10.I commit myself, to before making any promises, stop ,breath ,see all the points if this ,what  I want to commit is possible, and made the decision with common sense of this physical reality .
 11.I commit myself to stop this fake persona ,to be self honest to me and others,to investigate farther with my writings.
            

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